Letting Go And Finding Balance

It’s taken many years but I feel able to cheerfully announce that I am healed!  Why so?  I wasn’t looking forward to it but I’ve been back to the storage depot with my brother and sorted the remainder of the treasures which belonged to my Mum and Dad.

You’d have been proud of me, tackling the job with a very positive mental attitude.  We sorted through a mountain of boxes, saving a few books for bookworm Daughter to read – bought her a Kindle but doesn’t use it, preferring the ‘real thing’, she says.  EVERYTHING has now been allocated to a destination, mostly the charity shop.  There are so many beautiful books, Dad being extremely well read, so someone’s in for a treat.  The storage chap hid several large boxes of rubbish so that he could dispose of them for us when nobody was looking; it’s amazing what a bit of buttering up can do!

It’s a weight off my mind and signifies the end of an era.  So much was stolen and the indignity of much-loved possessions being strewn all over a warehouse floor I now see made my hold on what remained all the stronger.   I don’t know if you can understand when I say I felt protective towards my parents’ feelings in case they knew what had happened?  Sounds mad, I know, but I had to look after what remained of the physical representation of the lives of two very special people.

Finally, I’ve let the belongings go.  Round of applause, please, for it’s a significant step forward.  There are a couple more to take yet, such as the dedicating of a tree on the Autumn Trail at Westonbirt Arboretum which Mum loved to visit.  It’s all so final but, finally, I’m reaching a point of internal equilibrium.  There’s something else I haven’t told you, but I’m not quite ready yet…

  • Jan

    A round of applause is winging it’s way to you. Well done Janet x

  • Well done Janet. I can well understand what that feels like, holding on to the physical representation of your parents, that cannot be easy. I’m sure you will have released more than the belongings.

    That little cliff hanger at the end has kept me in suspense, can’t wait to read what that is all about.

    B

    • Thanks, Bianca. I think you’ll be surprised when I do finally tell all . . .

  • Janet

    Given how well you know me, I am sure it will not surprise you to know that the Morgans have a different operating system! My Mother and I were disposing of my Father’s things even as my brother’s plane took off overhead after his funeral. And my brother, my sister-in-law and I did my Mother’s house within a week of her death, perhaps even before her funeral. Takes all sorts! LOL.

    However, in view of your achievement, congrats. Liberating I am sure. I suppose I don’t attach sentiment to stuff although with my own impending 100% clearout of stuff for travel, the only few remaining things I will store are those I inherited. So I am contradicting myself.

    Just think of the reduction in storage costs. But the main benefit is in the release of energy, Feng Shui in fact.

    • I think there’s a strong argument for dealing with the disposal/allocation of unwanted items at the time, as you and your family have favoured. The longer it goes on, perhaps the more difficult it becomes? Yes, it is liberating to free up the energies trapped in time and space. Can’t wait to hear of your travel arrangements – where, when, for how long – as I love to travel myself, it’s on the backburner for the future. Janet

  • Hoorah! Sounds very liberating, Janet, and your writing gave that impression too. It felt like reading a celebration as if you were letting go of some of the sadness as well. Love the cliffhanger… Thank you, Sally